I. Am. Exhausted.
Well, it’s been a long time between posts. A very long time. It’s not that I don’t want to blog, I do, I really, really, do. It’s just I don’t have time, or energy. I am, for all intents and purposes working full time at the moment and studying.
I have been sick, and still am not well, but the chance of just resting up are slim to none really. Having rheumatoid arthritis means that often if I do get a cold, it take me longer to recover, my immune system not being what it should be. Again, the solution is rest… pffft.
I have not been for a run for over two weeks, everything hurts. I have a blocked nose, my ears ache, my head hurts.
I am exhausted. All. The. Time.
I have to do 2 assignments for a uni course I don’t really want to do, but due to a difference in what deems you as a qualified teacher BETWEEN STATES OF THE SAME COUNTRY I have to. I could just quit my job and start working in a primary school, but I want to keep teaching kinder. I could take leave without pay and do the practical component in 4 weeks straight, but then there would be no income for a month… ah, nope, not an option.
It’s the start of the school year still, and I have a class of children who are still settling in, some well, others less so. On Friday I was, for the first time in many, many years at a loss as to what I should do with a class of over tired children, unfamiliar relief staff, and myself having had no lunch break… what I wanted to do was sit on the mat and cry really. Not an option.
I remained at work long after my required time trying to come up with solutions for the less settled children, but really what they need is a teacher with enough energy to focus just on them. Which, by the middle of the year I will be, with the uni work behind me.
So really, it will be OK. This will pass… life will resume to it’s former rhythm. This I know, and it’s what keeps me going.
So now, I’ll take a breath, wipe the self pitying tears, and get on with it.
Or, as my darling Best Pam says, I’ll build a bridge and get over myself.
Good luck in dealing with it all xo
The bureaucracy of the whole system sucks.
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That is a classic example of the system failing MISERABLY. I think that is incredibly stupid that you are under this pressure for that reason. So you’re good enough to teach the class and you are already qualified, but you have to qualify again? I’m so sorry you are having to deal with this kind of pressure. And I’m passing you the Kleenex. xx
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with seraphim on this one – and sending you hugs and kleenex and lemsip and chocolate (unfortunately all virtual) hugs many hon.
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Ohhhhhh shite!!
That sucks big time.
I hope you start to feel well soon, at least you will be able to deal with everything better if you’re not sick.
Many hugs for you! xxx
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*passes over a gin* it does suck. And this too shall pass! Been thinking of you lately! Here anytime you need help finding the bottom of gin bottle! Hoping you get better soon!!! Xxxx
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i hate our states differ so greatly. really drives me up the wall.
you can do it
xx
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2 words for you sweet heart. Wine and drugs. My GP prescribed me antibiotics to help me kick this horrid thing we are inflicted with. It’s bloody exhausting in itself.
As for the wee little ones. Tired or not, your are the best teacher they could ever ask for.
As for the political crap that deems you not ‘qualified’ to be a kinder teacher in Vic @#*(&%)*&^)#*&^)!&*^#&%^)*&^%)#&)^)*&#….. well you know how I feel about that.
And as for you my dear friend. I love you and miss you and wish I was there to help you get through this crappy time.
Let me know when you are ready to start you bridge building and i’ll bring the foundation and scaffolding. Always there for you no matter how far away I am, and as you know, I’m brilliant at bridge building. I’ve had plenty of practice xxxxx
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Deep breaths and I hope you feel healthier soon. As to the qualifications issue – there’s been issues over that for years… all totally ridiculous but it’s the Gov’t, they won’t change for the better I’ll bet
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That’s not good. Hope you feel better soon, Nomie.XO
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